Dear Aggie
Today I went downtown and filed taxes for 2007 for my business. I owe over 2K. I'm also in debt for almost 6K to Visa. It's tiring thinking about it. I won't be able to pay the rent until tomorrow. I've run out of one of my medications, and won't be able to get it filled again until Monday earliest, owing to my psychiatrist's shrinking business hours.
I have progression raids with my WoW guild tomorrow night (Karazhan) and Sunday night (Zul'Aman), but I'm not 100% in the mood to raid right now. It's a good guild, but we're experiencing growing pains, and it's starting to feel like work. The guild has been functioning for perhaps a month, and I'm already thinking I need a break. Problem there is, things are starting to get a tad more serious than I want, and the opportunity to step back from my duties for a short break may already have passed. The raiders are getting antsy to get moving (1-day Kara clear scheduled tomorrow, Zul'Aman runs planned for once a week, heading for Gruul's Lair and other 25-man content shortly), and I'm starting to wonder if this is the same guild I helped found. If I didn't have so many close friends in the guild, I'd probably already have left. However, I won't be joining any more guilds after this if I do leave. I'll just quit the game. If I can't have a guild with my friends and have a good time playing the game, then things haven't worked out to plan.
Don't get me wrong. I like the game. I'm quite sure I can continue playing so long as I get to do so with my friends. It's just getting harder to avoid playing with people who are more serious about raiding and want to go-go-go, even though they profess not to want to do hardcore raiding. We're supposed to be a casual raiding guild, but it feels like every new day brings one more serious raider or change to accomodate serious raiding.
Too much WoW talk. It has been eating up too much of my time and energy.
I haven't been able to sit in front of an AG in months. I get anxiety from not knowing what to do next. I never particularly cared for puzzle-heavy games, and it's getting harder just to focus on the kind of problem solving needed for the games I currently have installed. I load up a game, poke at it for a handful of minutes, and then shut it down again.
I have books from the library. A book on 20th Century American comic history, a hardcover Acme Novelty Library issue by Chris Ware, and a biography of Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers. I'm not a huge fan of Petty, but I like his music well enough, and I love reading rock biographies. Problem is, I haven't been able to focus on reading much in the last while. I've started to read the comic history, but it's slow going so far. Not sure I'm as interested in some of the 'legends' they mention as others. E.C. Segar is not as important to me as Winsor McCay. And we're starting to get into guys I've never heard of nor care for. *sigh*
Still have three episodes of Torchwood and at least one episode of Doctor Who left to watch with Dawn. Maybe tonight.
I really need to work on that bloody package for work, but I just can't get into it right now. I have totally the wrong attitude, because I'm already thinking the concept is going to be rejected. I can't rip off the package concept they sent me to ape, and I can't imagine them wanting what I've got for them so far, based on the stuff they've rejected in the past.
And I've not made any significant progress on Stage! in at least a month. I've failed a dear friend and failed to realize a dream. I just haven't been able to devote more than a few minutes a day to it in weeks. I open up programmes, start working, and something comes up and drags me away. I should never have promised to do the design work with my schedule so messed up. Should have stuck to writing, which I can do relatively fast. I still want to do it, but have no idea now when it will ever see completion. Story of my life.
Okay, enough whining from me. Hope everyone is having a good day. *hugs all around*
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