Arghghghgg!!!
 

I am now even WORSE emotionally because two people, one of whom I greatly dislike, visited a friend of mine and I wanted to visit him first. Yes, I'm petty, I know. And yes, I made another thread already about my horrific life, I know I did. There's no post count in here and this is actually pertinent, so don't call me a spammer. :P
I also slept til 6 PM today. Needless to say, I am wired. I wish I weren't. Gah. I wish I hadn't woken up. I was having dreams, dreams of pleasant things, unlike my life.
I feel like shit. And no, I didn't have anywhere else to complain or vent, so don't bitch at me. :(
I wish someone would visit me or something but yeah right..like that would ever happen...
I wish someone would shoot me or I had the capacity to shoot myself. bah. I am so sick of this. I don't even know why I'm bothering saying anything else, probably because I have nowhere else to go. I don't think anyone will care after this because you'll all just take me for a whiner..

*hugs Jean.
That is meant to be a sign of sympathy, so don't slap me.

:)

Dunno what to say to make you feel better.... I can relate to the last things you wrote but what's helped me the last few days is the song "Jimmy Eat World - The middle". I get more strength and determined that I will also have happiness and pleasure in my life *some day*...
This probably didn't help much, but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone. And I'm sure plenty of people love you and care for you because you're such a beautiful person...

(((((((GJ)))))))

I remembered I had a really tough time a couple of years ago. For me it made me feel angry on everything and everyone because I felt like they didn't understand me. What helped me through that was music and hanging out with my friends as much as I could because they were more or less going through the same thing. After a short period of time I felt much better.

A-fucking-men. I guess I'm lucky enough to have hope that I'll live my life to serve that purpose, but I hope you can find that hope, too.

:sad:

((((((GJ))))))))