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Originally Posted by Tinariwen
yeah, I got friends that can´t meet girls couse they are so down after beind dumped or ignored.
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That's nothing. After my ex screwed me over I couldn't be with anyone for 8 years and I had tons of men who wanted me. I just ran away from them, and meanwhile I was amassing a huge amount of phone numbers and breaking hearts. Yeah, my self esteem was.....well, I had no self esteem.
Once I briefly dated this extremely sweet fellow and we got home to my front door and he told he was falling in love with me. I immediately put my finger over his lips and said, "No, please. I'm sorry, I can't. Be careful." I couldn't tell him I didn't deserve him and spent the rest of the night bawling in bed alone.
But to answer your query about being so in love you can't think of anything else? No, I haven't immediately fallen head over heels in love yet. Thus far it's been that I'm in denial or I think I'm a pathetic shit who deserves nothing even remotely resembling love. The man I'm with now fell in love with me, and I cried myself to sleep for two whole weeks in the process of getting the f#&k over my neurotic self and finally accepting the fact that yes, I must finally allow myself.
I'm a sad case, ain't I?
