[twifkak]

Err... nature vs. nurture... You are who you are because of the environment in which you grew up... Yes, you're affected by *everybody* that surrounds you, not just the ones who agree with your current viewpoint. Deal. You can't live in a vacuum. You can buy a house and sound-proof one of the rooms (that's actually something I'd like to do), but that's about as good as it gets. Even if you shut everyone off, you'll still have the memories of the people you grew up with. Would you prefer having been dropped off in the woods as soon as you were able to sustain yourself?

If the girl I am dating is a leech, uses me, and such, I will flip her off - even if I love her. I've done it. Still bothers me at times. Same is true with 'friends'.

Never had an itchy middle finger?

Paradigms are cool, man, don't shun paradigms.

YMMV.

Oh, and idiots are funny. They get mad at me for not following their invisible directions, and I laugh, because I don't give a shit about them, and then I cry, because they're probably getting laid. I don't know what I would do without this great big reality show we call Earth.

[Kingzjester]

Originally Posted by twifkak

Would you prefer having been dropped off in the woods as soon as you were able to sustain yourself?

As odd as this may sound, in the light of all that I have said before, I am very gregarious and enjoy the company of my fellow man... and/or woman... especially if and when we have something in common. That is where the fifth of mankind I don't want to kill comes from.

I'm no unabomber...

[Zygomaticus]

Speaking of leechy friends, I think I used to have a few leechy friends.

Back in India, where my family was relatively more well off than the rest, I used to go to this one school. Anyway, given our position, while most people travelled on the bus, I had a chauffeur to drive me - in an Opel Astra! A luxurious car for that time, in that place, if you didn't know.

I had many friends, but there was one fellow who I was particularly close with. He would normally take the bus home, but one day he asked me for a ride and I couldn't reject - him being my friend. He asked me the next day. The next day. And the next day. And the next day. And so it went.

Today, I've moved away, and he hasn't written me once. I don't have his contact info, but I know (atleast think) he has mine, and it's been 2 years for me here and he's never written me. All my other friends, people who didn't necessarily befriend me for the ride back home, I've talked with and/or keep in regular touch via e-mail. It's good. But this one friend I feel sad about.

Maybe he just doesn't remember my contact info and is just as much in the blue as I am, or maybe he's thrown me out given that I'm not there to give him a ride anymore. Oh well, woe is me.

[twifkak]

Originally Posted by Kingzjester

As odd as this may sound, in the light of all that I have said before, I am very gregarious and enjoy the company of my fellow man... and/or woman... especially if and when we have something in common. That is where the fifth of mankind I don't want to kill comes from.

I'm no unabomber...

Believe it or not, that doesn't sound odd. However, I'm still trying to get a hold of this. Are you saying people shouldn't judge, or that they should judge in silence instead of aloud?

And my know-it-all solution to krkode:
twifkak say: Lack of closure sucks, yes, but look hard enough, and you'll find closure in the lack thereof.

[Kingzjester]

Originally Posted by twifkak

Believe it or not, that doesn't sound odd. However, I'm still trying to get a hold of this. Are you saying people shouldn't judge, or that they should judge in silence instead of aloud?

I'm saying that people should judge to their heart's desire, they should yell, but not try to change somebody just because he/she wants something that is drastically different from their desires.

I'm being a demagogue here: what I really want is for people not to judge me. I want them to stand quietly before my throne and nod saying, 'Yes milord,' or, 'Aye, aye,' and, 'Zug, zug', while I'm reprimending them for their shallow existance and their ugly lawn decorations.

Originally Posted by twifkak says

Lack of closure sucks, yes, but look hard enough, and you'll find closure in the lack thereof.

A subtle ROF,L there.



Dear public diary,
Robin has an amazing gaze. That german fuck annoys me. If only he would stay away from her...

[Intrepid Homoludens]

Dear Diary,

A new H&M store just opened near the museum where I work. I wanna shop there not because it's fashionable, but because the clothes are freaking cheap (even compared to Gap), and they're new, not preowned by some deodorant eschewing lowlife (Amvets and Salvation Army can go to hell after the 80s). Unfortunately I'm broke until next week, so I'll have to make do with watching these disposable suburban Marcia Brady types walking around the streets carrying the huge white shopping bags with the red store logo on it, and wondering when the f@#k this trend of middle parted stringy hair and t.v. repairman butt hip hugger boot cuts are finally gonna go away.

The Jesus Christ look for the boys isn't so bad, though, if only as a refreshing patchouli scented alternative to those faggots over in boystown who look like they swam in a vat of shellac before touching pavement. God I hate them and their "I'm-wearing-Prada/AberFitch/Gucci-what-are-you-wearing?" mentality!

Funny thing is, I'm so old and yet my features still enable me to get away with wearing those things. At this stage in my life my personal style is like science, distilled down to a few essential pieces. I hate shopping, really. Hate it to death. But the reality is that some of my clothes are falling apart from sheer wear, and H&M is cheap and new.

Ironically, I always turn heads just walking down the street. I have a weird look, I'm skinny, have a particular way of walking (I'm often mistaken for a dancer), no one else can look like me. Today I was wearing my old and very beloved skinny navy blue wool Ralph Lauren turtleneck (got it real cheap 5 years ago at Filene's), an old pair of Gap low rise boot cut jeans (size 2 women's, fits better on me than the men's version), and my classic black fall windbreaker lined in grey fleece from Land's End. I had my black backpack and a copy of Hume's Treatise of Human Nature to read on the subway. The Marcia Bradys and Jesus Christs were looking at me, and I wanted to tell them: "Hey, go look at each other, because you all look alike, and isn't that what you want?"

Hmmm, I wonder what the next trend is?

[twifkak]

Originally Posted by Kingzjester

A subtle ROF,L there.

Why, thank you. I think...

*wonders how one rolls on the floor while laughing and manages to do it subtly*

And I looked up "panharangue" on m-w, and the first three suggestions were pentahedron, penetration, and panhandler. I thought that was interesting.

[GreenJeanz]

Dear Diary...
I had my hair done today. Yep. This would be fine and dandy if my oh-so-wonderful paternal family member didn't decide to be a total ASSHAT and not let us get a sandwich. Whilst in town. Five minutes away from the restaraunt. With the cash to pay for it. When he's the only one who can drive. And this is the only time I've been to town all month.
...Fucker.

Also, last night, I got called many DELIGHTFUL things by someone I know. Including the ever-enjoyable selfish! attention whore! immature! and best of alllll...to shut up or grow up! Yes, ladies and gents, it's a veritable bonanza of pettiness and unfounded hatred!
Sometimes, there are just some people I want to skewer with a giant shiskabob...it's amusing upon hindsight that it's usually myself whom I want to skewer at other people's actions, like some Bizarro World version of reality where victims are the ones who should be punished.

[Wormsie]

I had a maths test today. I got most of it wrong. With any luck I got six points.

The only good thing is that now there are no more exams. Well, there are more in about two months, but not in the forthcoming weeks. With any luck I might survive from today.

Because today is for relaxing and not worrying about anything. Today is for listening to all those CDs you wanted to listen to two weeks ago. Today is for watching softporn and downloading freeware adventure games. Today is for surfing the net and attending mindless IRC discussions. Today is like a Friday, but better.

I said that I don't paint. That's not exactly true. I finished this one a few days ago. It looks strange if you mirror it, but OK if you don't. I don't like the nonexistence of grass.

[Kingzjester]

Originally Posted by twifkak

Why, thank you. I think...

*wonders how one rolls on the floor while laughing and manages to do it subtly*

And I looked up "panharangue" on m-w, and the first three suggestions were pentahedron, penetration, and panhandler. I thought that was interesting.

Well, I rolled on the inside, while my outside was shedding a single tear... About panharangue - I just combined the Greek prefix 'pan' and 'harangue' to come up with a new word. Eureka.

[twifkak]

Originally Posted by Kingzjester

Well, I rolled on the inside, while my outside was shedding a single tear... About panharangue - I just combined the Greek prefix 'pan' and 'harangue' to come up with a new word. Eureka.

Pangenius.

[Wormsie]

I got 9.5 from my English exam. That's my usual standard, although I know I could do better, as the few mistakes I made were mostly very stupid mistakes, like "quite many". I'm glad, though.

My father made a one-hour speech about how I have to get my priorities right. Finally I'm feeling angry at him. Looks like I've finally hit adolescence, or however that's spelled.

[twifkak]

I had a diary entry all ready to type out that wasn't some depressive rant, and now I don't remember what it was.

Oh well. Status update. I'm busy seeing if I can re-write The Church in a vaguely standards-happy form, and am doing decently well, but the place I set up my temporary storage for it is down. Grr. Stupid free service. I hate them for not ensuring their free service is running 24/7. I'm on the edge of buying a Rio Karma, because it's so damned cool, and because my Neuros warranted a return (also damned cool, but not my bag). I like ginger. I'm supposed to go play poker tonight, but what I really want to do is go home and try to get my game back off the ground. It's not that I'm antisocial... is it?

[Kingzjester]

Ah, life. Can't live with it, can't live without it...

Today started in bed, like most of my todays. I dreamed about zombies and Tim Burtonesque evil things (not cartoony in the least). It has been a recurring dream for me, zombies and those things. They keep popping out of every crevice and chasing me through Belgrade-Galveston-DC kind of a cocktail dream city. Today I was tired of running away, so I barricaded myself on top of some stairway and waited. They appeared and took out Super Soakers(tm) and started spraying me with something acidic that itched like crazy. And as they were dousing me I realized that it didn't bother them much, so I hatched a plan for the next time they chase me through my dream: Drano(tm). I'll just spray them with Drano(tm). Drano(tm) is extremely alkaline, they are acidic beings, so it follows that I should turn them into salt and get it over with. With my luck, in the next dream they visit I'll be running through that city looking for Drano(tm), but never finding any...

I woke up and realized I was late for class. I got dressed without showering which makes me very irritated for the rest of the day (until I manage to shower when I find time).

The world outside is just horrendous. I hate Texas, I hate its climate. It is too goddamn hot, very much unlike the Octobers I like. It is humid like hell and the air is heavy like ammonia, makes you downright angry. The pungent Texan humidity causes my unwashed hair to form a cloud-like jumble. The few hairs that fall over my forehead and get soaked in sweat feel like little saws tugging back and embedding into my brow. They get into my eyes and piss me off. Walking across the parking lot I twitch like an idiot, hoping as I do that the damn strands would get off my face. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF TEN-MONTH SUMMERS! I HAVEN'T WORN MY FAVORITE JACKET IN YEARS. I FEEL AS IF I SMELL LIKE ANCHOVIE'S CUNT ALL THE GODDAMNED TIME.

Ok, then I remembered I forgot about the exam, I probably failed that one.

To top it all, when I approached the table where I usually chill with friends between classes, I was ignored and then sent away by two gorgeous girls. They were apparently talking and I was bothering them somehow. I hate when I am rejected access to information and company - be it stupid gossip that I don't want to know in the first place.

The worst thing about it is that I ate nothing this morning and was not in full possession of my mental faculties. The most cunning comeback I could come up with was a disappointed-sounding, 'Whatever...'

Then I walked away to the computer lab. No one noticed me doing so.

[Tamara]

Today I continued the 'drastically change my appearance' plan that began (and will continue) with piercings and cut my hair very short .. funky and spiky and sexy .. and dyed it dark purple .. a complete change .. one of my friends didn't recognise me at first! Photos will be posted when I take them

Also, I found out that there is such a thing as subdar I found this girl pretty much by accident last Tuesday and we really really clicked .. felt immediately comfortable, the way that rarely happens. And today I found out that my instinctive feeling was correct and we really do share a lot in common.

And I bought purple trousers to match my hair .. retail therapy rules

[DomStLeger]

Ok I got up at 7:30 AM this morning. I didn't even know there was one! Looked out the window; and low and behold it was freezing cold and windy outside. This cold scottish weather can be rather tiresome; espeically the insessant wind we get here on the east coast. Sometimes I wish I could just have a few days of texan style sun and humidity... (but then I remember how much I hate muggy days in summer and that I wish it would snow... I'm probably one of lifes complainers)

Today we had 9am-5pm full dya of lectures and practicals. We were supposed to have the second lecture off to prepare this video tutorial we have to do, but the anatomy lecturer found out and decided he'd take the slot so we could catch up Anatomy is my worst subject (I haven't got an interest for where things are, its the why and how I like) and we had a scheduled lecture at 2pm anyway, followed by a 2hr practical. So thats 4hrs of anatomy in one day! Bah!

Anyway before setting off I realised I had my first 2 hour german lesson from 7pm-9pm straight afterwards! Yes, 9hrs of work today alone. Man was I pissed off.

But then somehow it all turned round! First lecturer was a Dr I like a fair bit, because hes down to earth and friendly. He also seems very nervous when he lectures so I felt kind of sorry for him. That got me out of my bad mood. And things just seemed to get better from then on. I even managed to get a nap during the Psychology lecture. And I enjoyed the practical because we have a really fun table, and the girl I like is on the next table... plus the demonstrator was very interesting - he seemed more interested in applied anatomy.

And to top it all off, despite getting back at 5:30 tired and thinking about skipping german; I went and had a blast. It was really fun and there were a bunch of nice friendly people. And I suprised myself and remembered much more than I thought.

So why did I post? I don't know; it just made me think how you can go into a day with lots of expectations, (negative or positive) and come out the other end and it was enturely unexpected. I'm looking forward to next thursday.

(p.s. the sun even came out during lunch)

[Wormsie]

All sorts of bad things can happen at any time.

[Moosferatu]

I got braces today.

I hate them.

[Curt]

Originally Posted by Moosferatu

I got braces today.

I hate them.

Why, do your trousers keep falling down?

I had to work late today (worked from 8.40-14.00 - that's late for me ............ on a Friday) and missed the first game in the Rugby World Cup. GRRRRRRR!

When I got home I deinstalled both C&C Generals and the add-on and reinstalled them both to see if I could get my online problem fixed. It worked ........ YAY! ......... but then I still couldn't play due to a router/firewall problem. Megs fixed that for me half hour ago (I'm too dumb) so I just played my first skirmish against human opponents ever .......... and got hammered

Now I'm all hot and exhausted. The realisation is dawning on me that I may just be too old for this online gaming lark. Then again, sod it. It was FUN!

[Kingzjester]

Hey, GUESS WHAT DEAR DIARY?! I drove my phone bill to 200 bucks!

Fuckfuckfuck FUUUUCK-fuck
Fuckfuckfuck FUUUUCK-fuuuuck
Fuckfuckfuck FUUUUCK-FUCK
Fuck fuck fuck...
(Wagner's Die Valkyrie)

To translate: that means that I most likely will have to punish myself by not getting a new graphic card and motherboard.