09-03-2005, 05:41 PM | #1 |
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My very own attention whoring thread
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I've no idea how long this topic is going to get. I'm not sure what I'll be writing how. I'm just writing between two vent tags here. Don't expect coherence or structure. I just noticed that a forum I've been desperately trying to save from dying, The Abyss is no longer linked to from the community it is intended for. From what I have heard of someone else, it's not been linked to for months. Months in which the previous owner gave me the forum, and I've put every ounce of my online energy into restructuring the forum to get it to live again, somehow, because I was unaware it would have this newly granted disadvantage. I actually gave up - I was crying about it at one point, because it was such a pointless endeavour, it seemed, nothing was working, no matter what I was trying to do, and believe me, I was trying. Meanwhile I got shit from my moderators who decided the moderator rules didn't apply to them - I would have demoted them except I felt the board didn't belong to me, but the previous owner, that my ownership was temporary, so to speak, and he had put the mods there, and I didn't want to change his decisions without asking him... and he was super busy and I'm a ****ing pushover in regards to this... Anyway so I sent the owner of the game the board is about an eMail. And it got spam filtered. The spam filter was so nice to tell me that and bounce the eMail back asking me to please include the subject line "I am real" and just send it again. I did. It bounced back again. I tried again, making sure everything was the same. It bounced back again. And right now I want to kill things. Added to that, in real life I've had a cat to take care of for about two months now. Initially, I was supposed to take care of it for one month, but things changed. The cat is my mum's. And the cat is ill. I first assumed a hairball, but apparently, that's not it. So I went to a vet over two days which cost me 160 EUR, 40 EUR of which was the taxi because BoyToy was at work and hence couldn't drive me around. End of that? The vet tells me to change the cat's food WHICH THE CAT HAS BEEN EATING FOR OVER TEN ****ING YEARS NOW and gives me medicine that, when I give it to the cat, makes her vomiting worse. I'm at loss in both cases. I'm tired, I'm exhausted, and I want to kill. Added to that, my co-gamemaster in Crimson Feather conviniently vanished today without telling me what happened over the week (it's her simulation and her responsibility to fill in the blanks) - and about four hours ago I should have written a newsletter with the respective plot summary, but no, no ****ing co-GM. *cries!* </vent>
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09-03-2005, 05:58 PM | #2 |
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There, there. (Pats pinkgothic on the back)
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09-03-2005, 06:13 PM | #3 |
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*spreads arms*
All right, come on...two shoulders, no waiting. Go on, get it all out. ScottMate
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09-03-2005, 06:32 PM | #4 |
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Offering a shoulder to cry on is kind - and I thank you - but I guess I'd be happier with a piece of substential advice. Maybe something like "screw it, leave it all behind you, and kill the cat". It'd do. If anything, it might make me smile.
Heh. Not only do I attention whore... but I'm an unthankful little bitch to boot. *marks it down for self-scolding in times where these things matter to her - now not being one of them, for once*
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09-03-2005, 06:52 PM | #5 |
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Well, to be fair, my co-GM showed up and explained. Apparently, a storm forced her offline, to make a long story short. She's doing the summary now.
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09-03-2005, 08:10 PM | #6 |
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Oh my flipping... *trails off* Of course the 0.01% downtime Yahoo! allows itself would happen now. When I've hit send a good two minutes ago. I think the empty inbox is telling. Yet another newsletter swallowed by the Curse.
This wouldn't be so frusty if it wasn't beginning to look awkwardly made up. I had my newsletter hosted on www.notifylist.com before, and the list swallowed about 3 of just under 30 eMails, which was too high a percentage, so I migrated to Yahoo!. Edition #25 sent fine. Edition #26, today? And Yahoo! (well, specifically games.groups.yahoo.com) craps out. How likely is that? IS ANYONE GOING TO BUY THAT? True as it might be, I'm not believing it myself. This is just fabulous.
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09-03-2005, 08:43 PM | #7 | |
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First things first: (((((pinksie)))))
Now, advice. Walk away from all that shit for a few days. You'll not make yourself feel calm, in control, and clear in thought to make decisions if you choose to stay in front of your computer hitting the 'send' button again and again. You're not getting paid for this, are you? Even if you were, your sanity and peace of mind are more important than the current problem at hand. Besides, you'll only be contributing to that problem if you sit there and keep pulling your hair out and getting even more stressed. So based on what you've told us, none of this is your fault. And you know you've been doing all you can, but your colleagues were not as professional as you. I assume you have their phone numbers. Since you can't email them, CALL THEM and tell them exactly what you told us, and that you are taking MUCH deserved few days off from this shit. Quote:
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Trep, you know - you're my hero. But then, I'm sure you do in fact know this. And revel in it. Just a bit. Because you ought to. Thank you so very, very much for that.
You're absolutely right. I don't get paid for this. Quote:
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I'm sorry, I forgot to address this one...
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09-03-2005, 10:53 PM | #10 |
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It can be sad when a favorite forum changes character or shuts down.
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09-05-2005, 12:57 PM | #11 |
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Arrrararrararggggggh!
<vent> My girlfriend DarkJewel lost her uncle over the weekend and told me about it today after I more or less pulled it out of her nose. So not only am I ticked off about having to jab her about it, since she lost no word of this at all to me, but I'm in shock/grief about what did happen. My other girlfriend, Anoniemouse, just got told that her mother has cancer. Her mum's been ill for the past, say, two weeks or so, but the C-word only fell recently (yesterday, I believe). Anyway, she's the co-gamemaster of Crimson Feather, and her mum's been the reason for her absence. The full explanation of which she's also been withholding from me. Marvelous. Again, copypaste from above. Then, one of my more eloquent Crimson Feather players, Kor, who also runs an RP of her own, told me that she's missing her co-gamemaster... who is in New Orleans. They (the RP folk) have not been roleplaying since Katrina now and her channel has basically died - something mine has been spared of, by the way, despite the inactivity, which I'm grateful for, but it bites that it now hits someone else. She's struggling with herself as to taking over his character as an NPC. And today I logged onto Urban Dead only to notice that YAY someone revived me and BOO****INGHOO it was in a 1 hour or so timeframe in which revivication meant BUGGY... to elaborate, it's a zombie game. I was, until today, a zombie. I was trying to get revived. Normally, revival meant instant rev', half health points, and that's that. If it caught you when you were offline, it essentially meant you were dead again before you came back online. So the developer changed it so you would show up as "a dead body", and you'd have to stand up for 10 AP - that's all dandy, got me all excited, because it meant I could stock up on AP to later search for first aid kits. What isn't dandy is that there was a programming bug and I lost all my human skills, which's set me from level 14 back to level 11, without Free Running, without Construction and without Hand-to-Hand combat. 300 EXP (that's a lot), gone, poof, vanished, just due to crappy timing and an incredibly CRAPPY bug. </vent> And now BoyToy is refusing to whip me to convert emotional to physical pain and get rid of it. Boohoo. No, seriously, I'm getting numb.
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*sigh* Until then, it's testing whether or not the cat needs the medicine, whether the medicine makes it worse, or if she's going to die if I don't give it to her. Note exaggeration.
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09-05-2005, 03:31 PM | #13 |
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It'll end somewhen. Surely.
<vent> Second attempt at an important exam failed - despite all attempts of mine to learn like nobody's business. Interestingly enough it's the only exam I would have still needed to complete my "Vordiplom". Except I can essentially forget the next semester without one, as far as I know. First attempt was 36%. This time was 42%. 50% is needed. </vent>
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Looking up, though I had to whip things a lot to get there. Still whipping, but life is making progress. Aren't you, life? *sneers at the cowering thing in the corner* Oh, add-on. The reason I'm bringing this thread back up, even. Tombi has not yet shipped to me. Instead, I got sent the wrong shit. I've sent it back and am awaiting my actual ordered stuff. Or my money back. *the sound of drumming fingers invades the thread*
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You sound like you need some sex.
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But Scott - I'm female.
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And......?
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