[Intrepid Homoludens]

My sympathies, tsa. But please take my perspective on this (based on my own experiences). Your pet's death should not by any means be taken as indicative of the climate of your new year. If that were the case, wouldn't any bad moment in your life then bring similar consequential emotional wrinkles for about a year? Is that a healthy way of experiencing life?

In any case, the moments of joy you had when your fish was alive is what you should be working with from inspiration. That is the real gift. Happy new year and move forward in a more enriched way from it all.